The Prophet Habakkuk struggled with doubt. He was deeply worried about the threatening international situation of his day, Judah's spiritual decline and his own faltering faith. Why was God inactive? Why doesn't He do something? Habakkuk waited on the LORD and changed his question from "Why does God allow it?" to "Who is this God who will sustain me in the things He allows?"
Have you ever heard the term "Entitlement Mentality?" We've often used it in regard to some social programs and the attitudes of many teens today. Although I don't like to think of myself as judgmental, I often times am. I've often wondered just why certain people seem to believe they are owed things. Of course, I never saw myself as being part of that group. But... I am. I had my "ducks in a row." I was following a prescription, or recipe, for what I thought would produce a "good life." We are "good people." We go to church every Sunday. We serve others. We homeschooled our children. How much of my faith was really about what I thought I would be getting out of it? Was I serving and worshipping God for selfish reasons?
These are hard questions that I've had to ask myself. I don't like the answers. Even now, with my eyes opened to my filthy self-righteousness, I shirk away from the full realization. All that I've done... All that I've sought to be... was really... for ME. Really looking in the mirror is painful. Do I really deserve a family without problems? Do I really deserve health? Do I really deserve a life free from financial worry? No.
I don't know where you are, but this is where I am. I believe God is who He says He is. Do I struggle with that? Yes. I don't have all of the answers, but I do have faith. And I am thankful because that faith definitely does not come from me.
Though the fig tree may not blossom,
Nor fruit be on the vines;
Though the labor of the olive may fail,
And the fields yield no food;
Though the flock may be cut off from the fold,
And there be no herd in the stalls -
Yet I will rejoice in the LORD,
I will joy in the God of my salvation.